Learning From Reb Usher Freund zt"l

Okay, good morning morning חברה. We are learning in in the month of Sivan Sivan לעילוי נשמת Bassia Feiga bas Yisrael, Levi Levi ben Yosef, Fruma bas Yitzchak, and Pinchas Menachem ben Avraham David. And this week is sponsored by my parents in memory of my aunt whose her first יארצייט is already this week. Can you believe that? Crazy.

ממש crazy. חוה Yenta יענטא bas בת Chaim חיים Zalig זאליג Yitzchak יצחק הכהן. צדיקת. צדיקת.

So we miss, we miss her so much. So, so much. No, this is from a different שיעור. Okay, so ספרים you have here.

Whoever needs, there's more in the in the cabinet. Open up חברה. We are, we are starting a new letter from רב אשר. And I'm very, very excited.

But before we go into it, you're you're on on דף גימל. This is a letter from אדר 1971. Let Let me me ask ask you you a a שאלה. Do have have you come to clear conclusions as to why you're suffering with what you've been suffering from in this world? Like all the מחשבות in the head.

head. What are what we usually attribute them to? We deserve it, but do we attribute it to anything? Lack of אמונה. Lack of אמונה, what else? Huh? בחירה. What does that mean? So So you you make make your your own own decisions.

decisions. Bad Bad things things can can happen, happen, good good things. things. So you suffered, so okay, so say it a little bit more.

So you suffered based on, yeah. yeah. Meaning you're you're paying for bad choices, נכון? Yeah.We're all like little השם'ס here. We figured it all out.

It's amazing. Huh? I've I've never never suffered suffered a a day day in in my my life. life. Ah! We're going to start calling you זושא.

זושא Polstein. Okay. רב אשר, this is, I'm telling you, this letter, I, I, it's it's it's worth coming to the like רב יעקב Klein just put out an amazing, amazing ליקוטי מוהר"ן companion that you you you have to see. Maybe Maybe we'll send it out to the חברה.

And he said, he wrote, it was worth coming to this world just to put this one out. And he's put out so many different things, right? We've been learning so many different things. It was worth coming to this world to have the זכות to learn this together with you guys, this letter today. And I don't say it lightly.

There's something magical, really profound. You want a ספר? There's no extra ספר here. חברה, whoever has a ספר, please just make sure that um, um, you you you figure out with Dov how much you got to get to him. So on the bottom of דף גימל, רב אשר obviously is not saying to whom this letter is addressed, but זה mashehu משהו משהו.לכבוד.

אכן, מלחמת milchemes היצר hayetzer המביאנו hamevienu לכבידות lichveidus ולעצלות, ul'atzlus, מרורות meroros הן hein עד ad מאד. These These fights fights that that we we have have with with our our יצר הרע which which bring bring us us to to feel feel so so heavy heavy and and lazy. lazy. כבידות ועצלות.

They're They're so so bitter. bitter. These These wars wars we we have have with with the the יצר, they they are are so, so, they they they they make, make, we're we're all all מרורי, you you know? know? We We all, all, we we all all feel feel so, so, we we can can feel feel so so bitter. bitter.

You You have have it, it, Bentzy? Bentzy? Bottom Bottom of of גימל. ומי כמוני kamoni להביןך lehavincha ולדעת v'ladaas סביך svivcha שלבך shelibcha עקוב. שהרי יצרו yitzro של shel אדם adam מתגבר misgaber עליו alav בכל b'chol יום. This This is is a a famous famous חז"ל.

Every Every single single day. day. I I don't don't know know what what it, it, listen, listen, I I don't don't know know what what it it took took for for any any of of you you to to wake wake up, up, to to decide decide to to go go to to שול, to to decide decide to to דאווענען, to to decide decide to to stay stay for for a a שיעור, but but the the יצר definitely definitely showed showed up up this this morning. morning.

And And for for now, now, you you won. won. For For this this sec, sec, don't don't feel feel so so גישמאק 'cause 'cause it's it's still still a a long long day, day, but but till till now, now, it it seems seems like like you're you're winning. winning.

But But חז"ל said, said, יצרו של shel אדם adam מתגבר misgaber עליו alav בכל b'chol יום. ואלמלי הקדוש Hakadosh ברוך Baruch הוא Hu עוזרו ozro, לא lo היה hayah יכול yachol לו. But But the the only only way way you're you're able able to to win win is is because because you you had, had, I I get get by by with with a a little little help help from from my my friends, friends, right? right? That's That's the the only only way way you you could could make make it. it.

That's That's the the only only way way we we were were able able to to to to make make it it this this far far in in the the day, day, all all right? right? Only Only because because השם helped helped us.But us.But רב אשר has has a a קשיא on on this this חז"ל. Or Or in in the the this this חז"ל in in the the context context of of what what he's he's bringing bringing up. up. ולכאורה קשה kasheh הלשון halashon הקדוש Hakadosh ברוך Baruch הוא Hu עוזרו.

When When they they say say השם helps helps him, him, that's that's hard hard to to understand. understand. שהרי לעזור la'azor שייך shayach כשיש k'sheyeish לו lo אדם adam כח. You You help help somebody somebody when when the the person person has has some some certain certain element, element, a a certain certain amount amount of of strength.

strength. אבל לא lo במידה b'midah מספקת, maspekes, ואז v'az הקדוש Hakadosh ברוך Baruch הוא Hu עוזרו. You You know, know, it's it's funny funny like like when when someone someone asks asks for for a a loan loan or or wedding wedding for for a a חתונה, they they say say I I need need a a little little bit bit of of help. help.

He He says, says, how how much much do do you you need? need? Well, Well, I I need need I I need need all all of of it. it. No, No, you you don't don't need need help. help.

You You need need all all of of it. it. Help Help is is if if you you came came to to me me and and said, said, listen, listen, I I have have 50% 50% or or I I have have something, something, right? right? So So רב אשר is is saying saying over over here, here, אבל אם im אין ein לאדם l'adam שום shum כח, koach, כי ki מי mi שם sam פה peh לאדם, l'adam, מה mah שייך shayach הלשון halashon עוזרו? Why Why are are we we using using the the language language of of עוזרו as as if if like like I I have have a a little little כח on on my my own, own, and and then then השם fills fills in in the the rest rest and and he he helps helps me. me.

Why Why don't don't we we really really call call it it what what it it is, is, right? right? And And what, what, so so what what would would what what would would it, it, what what would would calling calling it it what what it it is is be? be? What What would would you you say? say? Everything. Everything. Everything. Everything.

השם fights, fights, fights fights for for you. you. The The whole whole the the whole whole the the whole whole war, war, כאילו, yeah. yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. ישועת השם. אתם תחרישון.

מה זה? השם ילחם yilachem לכם. That's That's not not השם יעזור ya'azor לכם lachem להילחם. No, No, it's it's you're you're very very right. right.

השם ילחם yilachem לכם lachem ואתם v'atem תחרישון. Even Even if if you you have have בחירה, he's he's saying, saying, it's it's the the the the war war is is so so intense. intense. כביכול.

ממש like like the the אלטער רבי says, says, you you know? know? כביכול ממש, right? right? It's It's a. a. Kind Kind of of literally. literally.

Now Now turn turn the the page. page. אבל באמת, but but truthfully, truthfully, מי שמאמין shema'amin כי ki כל kol מכאוביו machovav ויסוריו v'yissurav באו ba'u מידי miyedei השגחה hashgacha עליונה, סליחה, באו מידי miyedei השגחה hashgacha עליונה elyonah הרחומה. But But whoever whoever believes believes that that every every affliction affliction and and pain pain that that you're you're going going through through came came from from a a supreme supreme and and רחום.

רחום means means merciful merciful השגחה. ואלה באו ba'u לא lo חס chas ושלום v'shalom בשל b'shel עונש onesh על al חטאיו chatav, ולא v'lo בשל b'shel נקמת nikmas השם Hashem חס chas ושלום. And And not, not, and and this this is is what what I I was was getting getting to to in in the the beginning beginning of of שיעור, and and not not because because God God has has it it in in for for me. me.

Not Not the the Christian Christian idea. idea. Not Not the, the, no, no, ממש no. no.

Not Not because because this this is is God's God's revenge, revenge, or or because because I'm I'm here here to to get get punished punished for for being being a a bad bad boy, boy, right? right? Or Or a a bad bad girl. girl. אלא שהיסורים shehayissurim הם hem האמצעי ha'emtza'i להתקשרות l'hiskashrus עם im השם Hashem יתברך. You You should should know know this this is is very very controversial controversial what what he's he's saying.

saying. שניה שניה, let let me me just just get get through through this this paragraph paragraph and and then then you'll you'll you'll you'll you'll you'll whip whip away. away. But But here here it's it's it's it's very very באמת.

This This is is very very controversial controversial what what he's he's saying saying because because he he just just said said the the יסורים that that a a איד goes goes through through in in this this world, world, it's it's in in your your head head that that it's it's because because of of something something that that you you did did or or quite quite often, often, rightfully, rightfully, very very legitimately legitimately so so people people feel feel the the אייבישטער, the the אייבישטער is is getting getting he's he's getting getting me, me, he's he's getting getting me me back. back. This This is is השם'ס נקמה in in me, me, right? right? He's He's saying saying that's that's that's that's not not what's what's going going on. on.

The The יסורים there there what what he he calls calls it it אמצעי. What What is is an an אמצעי? Vehicle. Vehicle. It's It's a a medium medium להתקשרות עם im השם Hashem יתברך.

Really Really השם? You You couldn't couldn't give give it, it, you you couldn't couldn't create create a a vehicle, vehicle, a a medium, medium, any any other other way? way? Affliction Affliction is is the the one one that that that that that that works works best? best? And And the the answer answer is, is, yes. yes. Yes. Yes.

When When do do you you call call out out to to השם the the most? most? He's He's going going to to bring bring this this up. up. וכמו שאמר she'amar דוד David המלך Hamelech עליו alav השלום, like like King King David David says, says, טוב לי li כי ki עניתי. It's It's good good for for me me for for how how I I have have been been afflicted.

afflicted. Like, Like, uh, uh, you you know, know, עינוי. Tortured. Tortured.

טוב לי li כי ki עניתי, why? why? למען אלמד elmad חקיך. Because Because this this is is how how I I learn learn what what you're you're all all about. about. וידוע הכלל, and and what's what's also also known known is, is, וישמן ישורון Yeshurun ויבעט.

You You know know where where that's that's from? from? What What פרשה is is that that from? from? What What does does that that mean? mean? You You got, got, you you got got satiated satiated and and satiated, satiated, insatiated insatiated till till you you reached reached the the place place of of ויבעט, which which means, means, what what does does that that mean mean kicked? kicked? You You were, were, huh? huh? You You stopped stopped being being grateful. grateful. You You kicked kicked away away the the the the the the whole whole point point of of why why you you even even got got anything anything in in the the first first place. place.

ומכאן למדנו lamadnu שגזרה shegzeirah היא hi היא hi על al השמנים hashmeinim והשבעים v'hasvei'im והמדושנים, v'hamedushanim, כי ki אז az דעתם da'atam לבעוט. Here Here we we see see that that eventually eventually those those that that have have everything everything will will start start kicking kicking out. out. That That means means לשכוח צור tzur מחצבתם machtzavtam וקל u'keil מחוללם.

They'll They'll forget, forget, they'll they'll forget forget where where everything everything came came from from and and what what everything everything is is all all about.Okay. about.Okay. So So answering answering the the question, question, השם, can't can't you you find find another another way? way? So, So, okay, okay, we we have have that, that, we we have have that that שאלה quite quite often, often, but but the the answer answer of of רב אשר is is already already saying saying is is that that listen, listen, you'll you'll take take that that other other way way and and it'll it'll last last for for a a few few minutes. minutes.

That That התקשרות, right? right? That That התקשרות will will last last for for a a few few minutes. minutes. This This is is very very hard hard to to accept. accept.

It's It's very very hard hard to to come come to to to to to to to to to to terms terms with, with, especially especially when when you you like like you you bring bring a a child child home. home. I I remember remember when when I I brought, brought, when when we we brought brought home home each each child, child, I I remember remember the the drive drive home. home.

Or Or in in this this is is the the case case of of the the last last two, two, I I remember remember the the walk walk up up the the stairs. stairs. Because Because they they were were born born at at home, home, right? right? So So with with the the walk walk up up the the stairs. stairs.

And And I I was was thinking thinking already already like, like, it it is is it it is is wild, wild, wild wild decision decision to to bring bring a a child child into into the the world world even even though though you're you're מקיים מצוה. Because Because you're you're looking looking at at this this precious precious piece piece of of the the רבונו של Shel עולם and and you you know know that that no no matter matter how how perfect perfect of of a a parent parent you'll you'll be, be, and and how how much much you you shelter shelter them them and and guide guide them them and and whatnot, whatnot, they they themselves themselves because because of of the the מציאות of of this this world world are are going going to to have have to to meet meet a a level level of of torture torture in in this this world. world. Why? Why? Because Because that's that's the the way way השם designed designed the the mediums mediums through through which which we we are are מתקשר to to him.

him. Not Not the the only only way, way, but but it's it's definitely definitely one one of of the the main main ways. ways. Yes, Yes, יוסף.

Louder. Louder. So So there there are are obviously obviously consequences consequences to to our our actions, actions, right? right? So So to to say say that that the the יסורים aren't aren't when when the the תורה specifically specifically says says אם בחקתי bechukosai תלכו teileichu ואת v'es מצותי mitzvosai תשמרו and and then then all all the the ברכות and and then then if if you you don't, don't, then then all all the the קללות, right? right? So So how how can can one one say say that that it's it's not not based based on on our our actions actions that that we we don't don't have have these these יסורים?I don't don't know. know.

Okay. Okay. I I mean, mean, I I can can give give you, you, I I can can make make up up some some really really deep deep answer answer right right now now but but it's it's very, very, it's it's a a very very good good שאלה. But But I I just just know know the the other other way.

way. I I know know that that if if we, we, where where does does it, it, where where does does it it stem stem from from that that we we know know that that when when we we say, say, I'm I'm paying paying for for something. something. Or, Or, גאוה.

I I know know that that what what I'm I'm going going through through now now is is because because I I figured figured it it out, out, you you know. know. When When I I was was 14, 14, I I did did this this and and I'm I'm getting getting paid paid back back for. for.

I I know. know. There's There's a a שמץ, there's there's a a there's there's a a smell smell of of גאוה in in there. there.

Now, Now, it's it's true, true, it it doesn't doesn't doesn't doesn't מיישב your your שאלה. I'm I'm just just looking looking at at the the other other way way for for a a second. second. It's It's true.

true. It's It's true true because because I'll I'll tell tell you you something something else. else. I'll I'll I'll I'll give give a, a, you you know, know, I'll I'll give give you you a a קשיא on on what what you're you're saying saying right right now.

now. I I want want to to give give a a קשיא on on what what you you just just said said right right now, now, okay? okay? תשמע טוב. How How many many holy holy צדיקים were were killed killed in in this this war war right right now? now? 1200, 1200, I I don't don't know. know.

And And from from the the 1200, 1200, let's let's let's let's get get a a little little bit bit פרום, okay, okay, for for a a second. second. From From the the 1200. 1200.

But But for for the the context context of of this this שיעור, okay? okay? And And how how many many of of them them were were walking walking with with השם'ס חוקים? בערך, throw throw out out a a number. number. Throw Throw out out throw throw out out a a minimum. minimum.

Or Or a a max, max, huh? huh? 200, 200, 300, 300, I I don't don't know. know. 50. 50.

Okay, Okay, I'm I'm going going with with you you כאילו, you you understand understand what what I'm, I'm, you you understand understand what what I'm I'm saying? saying? I'm I'm like like going going safest safest as as possible. possible. Even Even though though you you know know I I don't don't believe believe in in anything anything I'm I'm saying saying right right now. now.

I'm I'm סתם כאילו just just devil's devil's advocating. advocating. Okay. Okay.

So So the the 50 50 of of those, those, what what are are you you going going to to tell, tell, how how are are you you looking looking at at them them with with the the טענה that that you you brought brought up up before? before? There There there there are are ways ways to to look look at at it. it. Correct. Correct.

The The one one There There are are ways ways to to look look at at it. it. Perhaps Perhaps the the one one was was כפרה on on thousands. thousands.

Who Who knows? knows? I I I I I I don't don't But But that's that's his his point. point. That's That's exactly exactly what what he's he's saying. saying.

But But I'm I'm Who Who knows? knows? But But I'm I'm saying saying what what the the תורה is is saying. saying. And And I'm I'm asking asking you you I'm I'm not not מוציא דבר. Let Let me me tell, tell, last last week week was was the the יארצייט of of the the רדזינער רבי, Rebbe, רב Reb שלמה'לי Shloimele מרדזין, okay? okay? His His great great his his great great nephew, nephew, the the אישביצער is is getting getting married married tonight.

tonight. The The one one that that we've we've got got close close to to is is getting getting married married tonight tonight in in New New York. York. Should Should be be a a בנין עדי Adei עד.

אמן. רב שלמה'לי Shloimele מרדזין, the the great great great great grandson, grandson, the the great great grandson, grandson, the the מאיר שילוח, Shiloach, זכותו zechuso יגן yagein עלינו. What, What, he he was was murd, murd, he he was was murdered murdered in in a a disgusting disgusting way way by by the the Germans Germans when when he he was was a a young young man, man, right, right, in in front front of of him. him.

So, So, אם בחקתי bechukosai תלכו teileichu ואת v'es מצותי mitzvosai תשמרו tishmoru ונתתי v'nasati גשמיכם gishmeichem בעתם. So So that that doesn't doesn't שטימען. Doesn't Doesn't work. work.

Meaning Meaning you you can't can't take take that that what what you you just just said said right right now, now, doesn't doesn't work work לאחרי מעשה. It It works works as as an an עבודה that that we we this this is is what what we we have have to to do do in in this this world. world. But But as as a a result result of of what what ends ends up up happening happening to to people, people, that that that that that that that that doesn't, doesn't, we we live live in in a a world world post post 6 6 million, million, it it doesn't doesn't work.

work. And And it's it's not, not, but but when when I I say say it it doesn't doesn't work, work, it it doesn't doesn't חס ושלום set set mean, mean, God God forbid, forbid, that that one one iota, iota, one one letter letter of of the the תורה isn't isn't אמת. It's It's our our חאפען, it's it's our our understanding understanding of of the the תורה that that needs needs to to completely completely always always be be refined. refined.

Because Because why why do do bad bad things things happen happen to to good good people people is is not not a a theoretical theoretical question. question. It's It's a a question question we we all all have. have.

Both Both about about other other people people and and also also in in our our lives lives as as well. well. There There was was a a איד I I knew, knew, he he gave gave away, away, he he he he made made money money when when he he was was young, young, made made a a lot lot of of money, money, he he gave gave away away a a lot, lot, a a lot lot of of money. money.

For For years, years, he's he's stuck stuck in in a a situation situation of of that that since since the the time time that that he he had had a a lot lot of of money money and and gave gave a a lot lot of of it it away, away, how how could could it it be be he he hasn't hasn't had had any any money money since? since? So So what what are are you you going going to to say? say? What What are are you you going going to to tell tell him? him? He He said said what what did did you you do do when when you you had had money? money? I I gave gave it, it, I I gave gave צדקה. Ah, Ah, so so there there must must be be something something else. else. There's There's always, always, there there always always could could be be something something else.

else. But But רב אשר is is saying saying over over here, here, whatever whatever that that something something else else is, is, whatever whatever it it is, is, whether whether you you get get to to the the point point or or don't, don't, afflictions afflictions and and pains pains are are wake wake up up calls calls for for התקשרות. Now, Now, none none of of us us want want that that to to be be the the לכתחילה. It's It's just just the the way way we're we're humanly humanly designed.

designed. Human Human humanly humanly designed. designed. And And there's there's different different levels levels and and stages stages within within this.

this. But But this this must must be be a a response, response, a a letter letter that's that's a a response response to to someone someone that's that's asking asking that that שאלה, why why do do good good things things happen, happen, why why are are bad bad things things happening happening to to me? me? And And maybe maybe he he wrote wrote to to him him also also saying, saying, you you know, know, it it could could be be when when I I was was younger, younger, I I wasn't wasn't so, so, you you know, know, this this I I was was שמירת הברית or or whatever whatever it it was. was. Thinking Thinking that that we we understand understand why why why why these these things things happen happen to to us.

us. And And רב אשר is, is, remember remember this this is is a a hard hard ספר. We We haven't haven't learned learned it it in in three three weeks weeks because because of of שבועות, and and there there was was something something else else also also יום ירושלים I I think. think.

רב אשר is is is is zoning zoning out, out, he's he's he's he's he's he's he's he's giving giving us us a a completely completely different different head head space space as as to to how how to, to, how how to to approach approach things things that that we we go go through through all all the the time. time. And And we we have have to, to, we we have have to to remember remember that that this this is is a a new new mode, mode, new new way way of of thinking, thinking, a a new new way way of of experiencing experiencing things. things.

But But the the the the חידוש so so far far is, is, don't don't be be so so sure sure that that you you understand understand why why bad bad things things are are happening happening to to you. you. Even Even if if you've you've been been able able to to prove prove it it תורה-wise and and whatnot. whatnot.

That That that's that's not not necessarily necessarily so. so. Yeah. Yeah.

Growing Growing up up it it was was reward reward and and punishment. punishment. The The way way I I grew grew up. up.

Most Most of of us. us. Yeah, Yeah, most most of of us. us.

And And then then later later on, on, it's it's not not reward reward and and punishment. punishment. God's God's not not looking looking to to exact exact judgment. judgment.

It's It's consequences. consequences. We're We're supposed supposed to to go go from from point point A A to to point point B. B.

Yeah. Yeah. And And this this is is the the way way to to get get there. there.

And And if if we we don't don't get get there there in in the the way way that that we're we're supposed supposed to, to, there there are are consequences consequences to to our our actions. actions. If If I I put put my my hand hand over over over over stove, stove, I'm I'm going going to to get get burned. burned.

No No one one put put a a hand hand over over a a stove stove over over here here and and they're they're still still suffering. suffering. Happens? Happens? Does Does that that happen? happen? No No one one put put their their hand hand over over a a stove stove and and they're they're still still feel feel feeling feeling burned. burned.

Does Does that that happen? happen? Every Every day. day. So So your your concept, concept, what what I'm I'm trying trying to to say say is is the the consequences consequences theory theory is is not not something something that that you you can can prove. prove.

Because Because many many people people never never put put their their hands hands on on stoves stoves and and got got burnt. burnt. סאשא, there there are are more more ספרים in in the the ארון if if you you want, want, in in the the in in the the the the first first one. one.

The The the the the the meeting meeting point point we we see see very very clearly clearly with with the the example example previously previously of of the the of of the the people people who who who who have have been been murdered murdered or or killed killed in in other other ways. ways. I'm I'm saying saying top top right right סאשא. First First one.

one. Through Through through through the the war, war, so so many many of of those those people people and and their their loved loved ones ones have have brought brought an an unbelievable unbelievable connection connection for for the the rest rest of of us us through through the the way way they they responded responded to to their their to to their their loss. loss. It's It's a a meeting meeting point.

point. It's It's a a meeting meeting point. point. Let's Let's see see how how he he develops develops what what he's he's bringing bringing down down to to us us right right now, now, okay? okay? והקדוש ברוך Baruch הוא Hu הרחום, harachum, הוא Hu מקדים makdim רחמים rachamim לרוגז.

The The merciful merciful God God who who brings brings forth forth רחמים before before anger. anger. ברצונו שלא shelo ידח yidach ממנו mimenu נדח nidach חס chas ושלום. The The רבונו של Shel עולם never never ever ever wants wants anyone anyone to to feel feel cast cast away.

away. ברצונו שבני shebnei האדם ha'adam בזה bazeh העולם ha'olam יחפשוהו yechapsuhu ויגלוהו v'yegaluhu בחושך bachoshech ההסתר hahester הכפול hakafu והמכופל. What What is is רצון is is is is that that people people in in this this world world will will search search for for Him, Him, will will find find Him Him in in the the darkness, darkness, in in the the concealment, concealment, in in the the concealment concealment of of all all concealments. concealments.

ברצונו לגאול lig'ol עמו amo ישראל Yisrael הקרובים hakrovim והרחוקים v'harechokim מידי miyedei הצר hatzar הצורר hatzorer אותם osam זה zeh אלפי alfei שנים shanim מיום miyom שנברא shenivra אדם adam על al הארץ. And And what what God God wants wants to to do do is is to to redeem redeem עם ישראל, the the ones ones that that are are close, close, the the one one that that are are far. far. He He wants wants to to redeem redeem them them from from the the hands hands of of the the צורר.

You You know know what what a a צורר is? is? המן. Usually Usually referred referred to to המן, צורר היהודים. היטלר ימח yimach שמו shmo וזכרו. The The one one that that persecutes, persecutes, the the one one that that controls, controls, the the one one that that damages, damages, the the one one that that harms.

harms. Who's Who's the the oldest oldest one? one? The The one one that that was was created created the the day day the the world world was was created, created, right? right? Which Which is is who? who? The The יצר הרע. He He wants wants to to save save us us from from there. there.

שולח לנו lanu סיבות sibos מאתו. השם sends sends us us causes, causes, reasons, reasons, all all the the time. time. לכל אחד echad ואחד v'echad לפי l'fi מידתו.

This This is is אמונה. אמונה is is realizing realizing that that השם sent sent me me exactly, exactly, exactly exactly what what I I need need to to struggle struggle with. with. And And it's it's different different than than what what he he sent sent you.

you. Because Because that's that's your your מידה, and and my my מידה is is my my מידה. He He sent sent each each and and every every one one of of us us exactly exactly what what we we need need to to struggle struggle with. with.

לפי מדרגתו, madreigaso, לפי l'fi יכולתו, according according to to your your מדרגה, לפי יכולתו and and in in accordance accordance to to your your capability. capability. לפי שורש shoresh נשמתו, in in accordance accordance to to the the root root your your root root of of your your soul, soul, ולפי צורך tzorech תיקון tikun נפשו and and in in accordance accordance to to what what your your נפש needs needs to to מתקן in in this this world. world.

For For one one reason. reason. What's What's the the only only reason reason השם sent sent us us ever ever anything anything that's that's been been hard? hard? על מנת menas שנוחז sheno'achaz בקרנות b'karnos המזבח. So So that that we we grab grab on on to to the the מזבח, to to the the altar, altar, ונקריב עליו alav חלבנו chelbeinu ודמינו.

And And that that we we sac sac we we offer offer as as a a sacrifice sacrifice our our fat, fat, our our blood, blood, like like he's he's using using לשון of of of of obviously obviously a a קרבן, so so that that we we bring bring as as a a קרבן to to השם, ואלו יעלו ya'alu לרצון l'ratzon לפני lifnei אדון Adon כל. And And these these come come before before השם, these these come come before before השם as as what what השם wants. wants. Like Like you you ever, ever, did did you you ever ever have have a a day day that that you you finished finished the the day day and and you you you you go go to to the the מזבח before before you you go go to to sleep sleep and and you you say say אייבישטער, thank thank you you for for everything everything today.

today. Today Today was was awful. awful. And And I'm I'm still still here here with with you you late late at at night.

night. But But today today was was horrendous. horrendous. Today Today was was horrendous.

horrendous. If If if if this this is is what what you you have have in in store store for for me me tomorrow, tomorrow, I I let let me me maybe maybe like, like, you you know, know, we'll we'll call call it it like, like, you you know. know. Yeah.

Yeah. But But you you still still say say but but אייבישטער, the the truth truth is is is is that that I I I I sweat sweat blood blood and and tears tears to to stay stay close close to to you you today. today. And And I I failed failed a a little little bit, bit, and and I I did did good good a a little little bit.

bit. But But any any ounce ounce of of of of of of uh, uh, any any ounce ounce of of pain pain that that I I went went through through today today in in order order to to hold hold on on to to my my relationship relationship with with you you השם, I'm I'm putting putting here here on on this this מזבח before before you, you, this this should should be be a a ריח ניחוח. This This should should bring, bring, this this should should bring bring a a fragrance fragrance before before you. you.

Can Can you you imagine imagine what what our our lives lives would would be be like like if if that's that's how how we, we, you you know, know, that's that's how how we we ended ended our our days days every every single single day? day? We We used used to to say say the the best best thing thing you you could could do do before before you you end end the the day day is is to to say say to to השם, or or to to say say to to yourself, yourself, you you know, know, today today I I really really gave gave it it a a good good shot. shot. Not Not my my best best shot, shot, but but I I gave gave it it a a good good shot. shot.

I I think think רב אשר is is saying saying over over here here even even more. more. I I I I I I gave gave it, it, I I gave gave it it so so much much and and the the truth truth is is I I messed messed up up a a bunch bunch but but there there was was and and there there was was so so much much pain pain in in what what I I had had to to go go through through today. today.

So So many many people people insulted insulted me. me. So So many many moments moments I I thought thought that that I I was was going going to to close close a a deal, deal, didn't. didn't.

My My מעריב, if if I I even even made made it, it, stunk. stunk. And And that that time time that that I I let let it it out out on on my my child child when when that that was was the the last last thing thing in in the the world world I I wanted wanted to to do, do, השם ירחם. Only Only you you know know that's that's not not me.

me. And And I'm I'm I'm I'm in in such such pain pain over over it. it. Why Why do do you you why why did did you you put put me me through through this? this? I I I I don't don't know, know, maybe maybe it it was was to to get get to to this this moment moment of of calling calling out out to to you you because because if if my my day day was was so so perfect, perfect, you you wouldn't wouldn't hear hear this this קרעכץ of of a a איד.

The The בעל שם Shem טוב Tov הקדוש says says that, that, he he says says a a געוואלדיגע זאך, he he says says the the reason reason why, why, he he says says that that in in the the back back in in in in the the back back in in the the in in the the soundtrack soundtrack of of a a איד'ס psyche, psyche, every every ראש השנה Hashanah יום Yom כיפור, every every יום כיפור he he say say רבונו של Shel עולם, had had we we not not made made these these עבירות this this last last year, year, you you wouldn't wouldn't have have any any of of these these געוואלדיגע ניגונים either. either. These These are are all all בדיעבד תורות. These These are are not not לכתחילה, these these are are not not לכתחילה statements statements or or לכתחילה תורות.

על מנת, back back to to the the bottom bottom line, line, על מנת menas שבכל sheb'chol אשר asher תמצא timtza עווננו, avoneinu, נזעק nizak להשם. You You did did all all this this that that wherever wherever we we you you find find us, us, it's it's to to scream scream out out to to you you מפני הלחץ halachatz אשר asher אנו anu נלחצים nilchatzim על al ידו. Because Because we we feel feel like like we're we're being being pressured pressured by by you you השם. ונאמר till till we we come come to to a a place place that that says says השם הוא Hu האלוקים HaElokim, אין ein עוד od מלבדו.

It's It's a a heavy heavy stuff. stuff. I'm I'm I'm I'm quite quite aware. aware.

Preparing Preparing this this was was torturous torturous and and fun fun at at the the same same time. time. ואלו היסורים, second second left left column column on on top. top.

ואלו היסורים hayissurim ששולח sheshole'ach לנו lanu ואלו v'eilu הכאבים hak'eivim שאנו she'anu מתעטפים mis'atfim בהם bahem כל kol ימי yemei חיינו. The The afflictions afflictions that that God God sent sent down down to to us us and and the the pain pain that that we we are are wrapped wrapped ourselves ourselves that that seem seem to to be be like like just just wrapping wrapping us us from from all all corners corners our our whole whole life. life. הם המיצבות hameyatzvos את es הקשר hak בינינו backlinks ובין shebein בוראנו bor'einu ברוך baruch שמו.

These These are are the the things things that that מייצב, they they stabilize stabilize the the connection connection that that we we have have between between us us and and the the רבונו של Shel עולם. שהרי כמו k'mo לאיל like like we we said said before, before, לא מצינו, we we never never found found מי שפרנסתו sheparnasaso מצויה metzuyah ברווח when when a a guy's guy's killing killing it it and and he's he's got got plenty plenty of of געלט, we we never never found found a a person person like like that that שתהא שעתו sha'ato פנויה pnuyah לבקש l'vakeish ולחפש u'lechapeis את es בוראו. He He doesn't doesn't really really find find himself himself in in the the forest forest that that often often saying saying where where are are you? you? Where Where are are you? you? Where Where am am I? I? Where Where are are we? we? לא ראינו ra'inu מי mi שהוא shehu שלם shalem בגופו b'gufo ללא b'lo צער tza'ar ואגמת v'agmas נפש nefesh מעצמו me'atzmo ממשפחתו u'mishpachto שיחוש sheyachush את es צערוס tza'aros וכאבי v'ke'evei הזולת. And And the the one one that that his his children children are are those those children children that that you you probably probably want want to to beat beat up, up, not not because because they're they're mean mean to to your your children, children, but but because because they're they're the the kids kids that that in in your your mind mind you're you're comparing comparing what what could could be, be, what what could could have have been been with with your your kids kids to to them, them, to to those those kids.

kids. Meaning, Meaning, I'm I'm not not I'm I'm I'm I'm really, really, really really working working hard hard now now and and not not mentioning mentioning last last names. names. I I would would never never do do it it last last names names here.

here. I'm I'm saying saying even even growing growing up up if if there's there's someone someone that that I I grew grew up up with, with, you you know, know, I I grew grew up up with with in in America America or or in in Ranana Ranana like like I I wouldn't wouldn't mention, mention, oh oh you you know know like like so so and and so, so, but but there there was was always always that that family. family. You You never never know know what what was was going going on on in in the the house, house, but but outside outside it it looked looked like like the the Brady Brady Bunch, Bunch, more more or or less.

less. Like, Like, and and you you know know you you and and you you knew knew your your parents parents were were always always thinking, thinking, they they don't don't they they would would never never act act like, like, they they would would never never do do this. this. That That family family would would never never do do it, it, right? right? Then Then you you like, like, you you meet meet that that kid kid a a little little bit bit later later in in life, life, he's he's doing doing lines lines and and he's he's piercings piercings and and because because he he although although his his his his whole whole his his whole whole his his whole whole life life growing growing up up in in that that house, house, he he felt felt like like choked, choked, right? right? And And he he finally finally was was able able to to have have some some חופש and and he's he's like, like, I'm I'm just just going going to to express express myself, myself, right? right? But But the the person person that that grew grew up up in in a a situation situation that, that, you you know, know, his his his his kids kids would would get get depressed depressed if if they they got got a a 97 97 and and not not 100, 100, right? right? There There are are people people like like this, this, you you should should know.

know. I'm I'm not not friendly friendly with with these these חברה and and we we don't don't have have שבת meals meals together together and and my my kids kids aren't aren't so so close close to to them, them, but but there there are are people people like like this, this, right? right? That That person person he he says says that that that's that's what what he he goes goes through through in in life life and and he he never never ever ever had had any any physical physical issues, issues, ברוך השם, things things are are going going good. good. He's He's saying saying over over here, here, you you know know what what that that person person can't can't really really ever ever feel? feel? He He can can never never feel feel the the pain pain of of somebody somebody else.

else. I I want want you you I I want want you you guys guys to to know know something. something. רב שלום Shalom בראדט, he's he's on on my my mind mind every every every every single single day.

day. And And when when he he was was younger, younger, he he went went through through a a very very serious serious trauma. trauma. Without Without getting getting too too in in the the too too much much into into the the details, details, and and he he would would tell tell me me quite quite often often that that he he thinks thinks the the only only reason reason why why he he went went through through that that when when he he was was younger younger was was because because השם knew knew that that later later in in life life he'd he'd have have all all these these broken broken נשמות show show up up at at his his doorstep.

doorstep. And And that that he he knows knows that's that's he he he he says says he he thinks, thinks, he he doesn't doesn't say say I I know, know, he he would would never never say say I I know know why, why, right, right, he he wasn't wasn't into into that. that. But But he he also also I I think think that's that's why why I I had had to to that's that's how how I'm I'm choosing choosing to to view view why why I I had had to to go go through through that that because because all all these these broken broken נשמות end end up up at at my my doorstep doorstep and and I'm I'm able able to to talk talk to to them.

them. I I can can I I can can I I can can hear hear them, them, I I can can feel feel them. them. And And that's that's really really what what it it was.

was. You You know, know, that's that's really really what what it it was. was. So So he's he's saying saying at at the the end end of of this this paragraph paragraph he's he's saying saying לחוש את es צערוס tza'aros כאבי ke'evei הזולת, to to really really not not just just identify, identify, but but to to really really feel feel the the pain.

pain. רב שלמה has has a a long long תורה about about the the כהן and and the the צרוע. It's It's based based on on the the אישביצר the the כהן and and the the one one that that has has צרעת. Why Why why why did did the the why why did did the the person person that that have have צרעת feel feel like like feel feel so so much much better better when when the the כהן would would come come up up to to them them and and and and would would say say oh oh טמא or or טהור, you you think think you you think think they they were were just just so so happy happy when when the the כהן said, said, okay, okay, now now you're you're טהור? It's It's that that something something in in the the זרע של shel אהרן, אהרן הכהן, the the כהנים had had a a way way to to convey convey to to people people that that they they don't don't just just understand understand what what they're they're going going through, through, but but that that they're they're ממש feeling feeling what what they're they're going going through.

through. שלום. That's That's the the whole whole כח of of the the כהן of of אהרן. Yeah, Yeah, שלום.

That That שלום is is the the deepest deepest one one we we spoke spoke about about on on שבת. Which Which but but what what does does that that have have to to do do with with with with feeling feeling someone someone else's else's pain? pain? Who Who can can convey convey best best that that ברכה של shel שלום, a a person person that that embodies embodies it. it. The The כהן.

Oh, Oh, in in שבת morning morning in in the the אישביצר, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. yeah. That's That's what what people people want, want, but but people people that that don't don't have have that, that, people people that that don't don't go go through through this, this, saying saying we we don't don't find find people people that that haven't haven't really really struggled struggled in in life life that that are are going going out out and and searching searching for for their their רבונו של Shel עולם. אסרו חג chag באבותים ba'avosim עד ad קרנות karnos המזבח, right? right? So So God God shackled shackled us us with with these these bonds bonds and and shackles, shackles, with with pain, pain, affliction, affliction, שמהם ניקח nikach לעבודת la'avodas השם Hashem שעל she'al ידם.

You You know, know, if if you you if if you you look look at at your your pain pain and and you you say, say, okay, okay, this this is is the the way way to to get get close close to to you, you, but but I I hate hate you you from from this this for for choosing choosing that that this this is is the the way way that that that that we we have have to to get get close close to to you, you, you're you're still still missing missing the the point. point. ונזכה להכיר lehakir מציאות metzius האור ha'or בתוך b'toch החושך. We We will will we we will will be be we we will will merit merit to to recognize recognize the the reality reality of of light light that's that's within within darkness.

darkness. ומתוך שנדע sheneda מיעוט miut ערכנו, and and by by knowing knowing how how small small we we really really are, are, which which I I want want to to say say means, means, and and also also discovering discovering that that we we can't can't really really know know exactly exactly every every מידה כנגד keneged מידה. I I can't can't attribute attribute every every עבירה I I did did as as a a kid kid to to explain explain why why I I have have to to go go through through this this right right now.You now.You know, know, some some people people want want to to sound sound like like they're they're really really holding holding they're they're like like holy. holy.

They'll They'll come come to to certain certain צדיקים and and they'll they'll say, say, you you know, know, like, like, you you know, know, I I I I I I know, know, I I know, know, when when I I was was young, young, I I used used to to be be ממש like like חטאת נעורים and and now now I'm I'm paying paying for for it. it. You You know, know, I I was was נואף, I I was was I I was was wild wild with with with with with with sexual sexual immorality. immorality.

Now Now I I know know why why I'm I'm going going through through what what I'm I'm going going through, through, thinking thinking that that they're they're sounding sounding so so הייליג. The The real real צדיקים would would throw throw that that guy guy out out of of the the room room faster faster than than anything. anything. Saying, Saying, you you the the a a גאוה like like this this I've I've never never heard.

heard. What What do do you you mean mean גאוה? I'm I'm I'm I'm coming coming to to You You who who are are you? you? מיעוט ערכנו. Reb Reb Usher Usher is is saying saying you you that's that's that's that's not not this this program. program.

This This program program doesn't doesn't work work like like this. this. This This program program doesn't doesn't work work like like this. this.

ונראה איך eich שלמרות shelamrot ועל ve'al אף af כל kol הייסורים, hayisurim, בלבול bilbul הדעת, hada'as, והכבדות, vehakveidus, העצלות, ha'atzlus, טרדות tirdos הזמן hazman ושאר u'sh'ar מריעין merein בישין bishin דסובבין d'sovvin אותנו. And And we'll we'll see see that that despite despite all all the the pain, pain, the the confusion, confusion, the the heaviness, heaviness, the the עצלות, the the laziness, laziness, feeling feeling like like I I barely barely have have time time for for anything, anything, and and other other things things that that are are surrounding surrounding me, me, עדיין חולפים cholfim עוברים ovrim במוחינו b'mocheinu מחשבות machshavos הקוראות hakoros אותנו osanu להתקשרות l'hitkashrus והדבקות v'hidabkus בהשם. Despite Despite everything everything that that you you are are going going through through right right now, now, you you are are still still calling calling out out to to השם? Do Do you you realize realize who who you you are? are? Before Before you you חשבון out out everything everything that that you you went went through, through, stop stop for for a a moment moment and and realize realize you're you're you you actually actually still still care. care.

Do Do you you know know how how גוואלדיג that that is? is? הרי יארע yoreh צעמי tzami מאין me'ayin הוא hu חי, where where does does it it Oh Oh sorry. sorry. Sorry. Sorry.

ולהחזיר מעמד ma'amad בחירוק b'chiruk שיניים. And And you're you're still still holding holding on on for for dear dear life, life, even even though though you you have have every every reason reason to to have have given given up up so so many many times times ago. ago. It's It's like like this this person, person, Reb Reb Usher Usher is is writing writing back back to to this this person person that's that's trying trying to to find find שלום in in his his heart heart for for why why he's he's going going through through what what he's he's going going through.

through. He He says, says, stop stop for for a a second. second. Do Do you you realize realize that that you you wrote wrote a a letter letter to to a a רב that that you're you're trying trying to to you're you're in in the the פרשה.

You You should should go go make make a a סעודת מצוה. You're You're in in you're you're still still you're you're even even in in the the פרשה. Maybe Maybe you'll you'll crack crack this this code code in in in in 80 80 גלגולים from from now. now.

But But right right now now you're you're eat eat you're you're still still in in this. this. מזל טוב. Stop.

Stop. Pause Pause for for a a second. second. At At least least you're you're in in it.

it. אלא בהכרח b'hechrech מתבקשת misbakeshes המסקנה. So So the the המסקנה from from all all of of this this seems seems to to be be שהקדוש ברוך Baruch הוא Hu מצילנו matzileinu מן min השאול, hasheol, סוררות soreros ומביאנו u'mevienu אל el תיקון tikun נפשנו. If If you you went went through through this this גלגול and and they they and and they they told told you, you, you you had had a a pretty pretty good good life, life, but but you you did did nothing nothing that that had had to to do do with with the the תיקון of of your your נפש as as to to why why you you came came down down here.

here. Can Can you you imagine imagine what what you you so so to to speak speak would would feel feel like like at at that that moment? moment? But But if if you you went went through through a a lot lot of of pain pain and and suffering suffering and and then then you you got got up up to to שמים and and they they said, said, wow, wow, you you really really mastered mastered the the art art of of the the תיקון of of your your נפש. You You think think you'd you'd start start to to say, say, but but why why did did I I have have to to suffer suffer so so much? much? After After they they told told you, you, you you were were dealing dealing with with the the תיקון of of your your נפש in in the the most most profound profound and and holy holy way? way? You You wouldn't wouldn't say say that. that.

So So this, this, he he says, says, הקדוש ברוך Baruch הוא Hu מצילנו matzileinu מן min השאול, hasheol, סוררות soreros ומביאנו u'mevienu אל el תיקון tikun נפשנו nafsheinu ולגאולת v'ligulas עמו amo ישראל Yisrael ברחמים b'rachamim מרובים. This This is is אמונה. This This is is the the whole whole זאך. That That going going through through what what we we go go through through in in this this world, world, that that that's that's where where בחירה is.

is. You You know, know, we we were were talking talking about about בחירה before before in in terms terms of of I I choose choose to to do do an an עבירה or or a a מצוה. Reb Reb Usher's Usher's בחירה game game doesn't doesn't that's that's not not according according to to this this where where it's it's at. at.

The The בחירה is is how how do do I I view view what what I'm I'm going going through? through? Not Not did did I I do do a a מצוה or or did did I I do do an an עבירה? How How do do I I choose choose to to look look at at what what my my bag bag is is all all about? about? And And אמונה is is is is that that exactly exactly in in accordance accordance to to my my שורש נפש, שורש נשמה, my my ענין, even even though though I I can't can't understand understand it. it. Listen, Listen, there there are are things, things, but but I'll I'll tell tell you you something. something.

I I found found out out about about something something when when I I was was 19 19 that that I I still still can't can't figure figure out out for for my my life life why why I I had had to to find find out. out. Not Not and and it it had had nothing nothing to to do do with with me. me.

It's It's about about other other people. people. ממש, I I I I found found out out about about something something that that was was so so פוגם in in my my נפש and and I'm I'm for for years, years, till till I I started started having having kids kids and and just just life life got got too too busy busy to to ask ask this this much, much, wondering, wondering, I'm I'm still still wondering wondering what what in in the the world world was, was, why why on on earth earth did did I I have have to to find find this this out? out? And And I I don't don't know. know.

But But that's that's also also okay okay because because you you have have to to just just keep keep on on going going with with the the flow flow and and saying, saying, okay, okay, I'm I'm going going to to I I I'm I'm I'm I'm going going to to continue continue doing doing what what I I have have to to do do in in this this world world and and I'm I'm going going to to keep keep on on calling calling out out to to you you no no matter matter what. what. I'm I'm in in the the game. game.

לא משנה meshane מה. How How we we know know that that it's it's the the תיקון of of our our נפש or or not, not, they'll they'll tell tell us us עד מאה meah ועשרים. But But believing believing that that whatever whatever has has come come your your way way is is in in accordance accordance to to your your מדרגה, your your שורש נשמה. Everywhere Everywhere you're you're at, at, that's that's one one of of the the most most important important key key elements elements of of אמונה.

Eli's Eli's arm arm is is going going to to fall fall off off if if I I don't don't ask ask him him to to No, No, no no one's one's ever ever held held it it for for this this long. long. Go Go for for it.I it.I watch watch the the first first way way to to respond respond to to to to to to pain pain is is sort sort of of a a thin thin level level of of reward reward and and punishment. punishment.

It It has has only only to to do do with with me, me, right? right? Or Or maybe maybe other other people people if if I'm I'm feeling feeling not not not not so so nice, nice, right? right? And And but but that's that's a a that's that's a a very very thin thin level level and and it it explodes explodes all all of of that. that. And And he he builds builds a a tapestry tapestry here. here.

First First of of all, all, I I understand understand who who knows knows better better than than me me what what your your pain pain is. is. We We all all go go through through this. this.

I I understand understand your your pain pain because because I'm I'm not not a a stranger stranger to to it. it. So So I I have have what what to to say. say.

But But I'm I'm telling telling you you that that you you should should lean lean into into it it and and not not escape escape it. it. It's It's not not God God pushing pushing you you away. away.

להבדיל אלף elef הבדלות. It's It's God God pulling pulling you you in. in. And And by by the the way, way, in in case case you're you're interested, interested, it's it's exactly exactly what what you you need need for for your your נפש.

Again, Again, not not in in a a vindictive vindictive way. way. Right. Right.

But But because because this this is is what what builds builds you. you. And And by by the the way, way, it it also also has has to to do do with with the the גאולה of of כלל ישראל. He He mentions mentions it it a a number number of of times.

times. You You think think this this you're you're in in this this by by yourself, yourself, you're you're not.That's not.That's the the last last thing thing he he said said over over here. here. ולגאולת עמו amo ישראל.This this this and and he'll he'll get get deeper deeper into into it it in in in in in in other other letters.

letters. You're You're bringing bringing the the גאולה by by by by by by by by approaching approaching pain pain this this way. way. And And nobody's nobody's left left behind, behind, right? right? And And also, also, by by the the way, way, the the an an initial initial stage stage is is that that you're you're going going to to understand understand through through your your pain pain as as we we were were saying, saying, how how to to feel feel other other people's people's pain.

pain. Yeah. Yeah. Because Because that's that's the the key.

key. That's That's the the key. key. You You you you you're you're you're you're you're you're zeroing zeroing in in on on yourself yourself because because this this is is exactly exactly for for you, you, but but it it is is so so that that you you become become a a much much bigger bigger person.

person. That That you you realize realize that that you're you're part part of of a a כלל, you're you're part part of of a a גוף, you're you're part part of of a a גאולה, and and this this is is the the way way there. there. So So don't don't be be stuck stuck in in a a negative negative place place with with just just the the thin thin line line of of reward reward and and punishment.

punishment. There There is is so so much much more more deep deep here here and and it's it's a a חבל to to miss. miss. That's That's a.שכויח.

a.. שכויח גדול. Shkoyach ישאר gadol. כח Yishar We're gonna We're we're gonna gonna we're end gonna we're end gonna we're finish gonna this finish this this this this one this it's one like it's another like two-sider.

another בעזרת two-sider. השם we'll finish we'll this finish this this letter this next letter week. next For week. the For חבר'ה the that took that ספרים, took please just please make just sure make you sure get you you get get you to get דוב to the געלט.

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